my mom JUST came back from her trip and i CAN'T STAND IT

my mom went on a trip for a week to visit my aunt and for the whole week she's been gone it's been peaceful as hell apart from taking care of my grandma with dementia who has delusions and stuff but like she just came back and it's HELL.

she's always been the type to bother and nag me and i don't mean it in a "remember to eat lunch" once a day, she literally BARGES into my room to almost scream at my face about how much of a bad kid i am and how i should clean after myself, how my room's a mess, and just plain complaining about everything about me in general and saying stuff about how my effort isn't enough because being unwell mentally isn't an excuse.

she also blames me for literally EVERYTHING going on, her not resting well because idk i let the cats out of my room WHICH BY THE WAY ITS BECAUSE THEY WAKE ME UP TOO or also the unclean kitchen and house when really the only thing i like keep unclean and i admit is my room.. 

my whole house is a mess btw. like. a MESS. it's messy and dirty, trash bags pile up weekly or even bi–weekly, etc. and ofc i can't complain because 'it's not her fault she's too busy' and 'if it bothers me so much i should help her clean up' BRO I'M YOUR KID I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO WORRY ABOUT WETHER THERE'S ROTTING FOOD ON THE COUNTER OR IF I CAN WALK AROUND MY OWN APARTMENT. 

istg and she pretends everything is so fine and so great just because she buys me some treats or some clothes or stuff.. like no mom that will not fix my borderline personality disorder or my ADHD... MIND YOU MIND YOU MIND YOU SHE KNOWS MOST STUFF ABOUT MY TRAUMA BECAUSE I USED TO TALK TO HER ABOUT STUFF and still says they're excuses to not do anything and not help around the house.

she always says she's better than most moms because other families force their children to like clean up the whole house or do chores and i'm just like... okay you want a prize? you want a medal? a trophy? we're not other families and i'm definitely not a normal teenager.

my mental health is ASS and i can literally feel it declining every day, every single hour that goes by is a struggle for me and her coming into my space for the 10th time in a single day to tell me that i'm doing everything wrong does NOT help me at all. and the WORST PART is that every time i stand up for myself she dismisses me and says 'maybe it's better if you lived with your dad' BRO IT WOULD NOT AND YOU KNOW THAT DAMN WELL THAT MAN IS A BEAST OF A HUMAN.

idk what to do, honestly i can't wait to move out.