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I haven't written anything here yet so nows shall be the time, and what better to write about than the bane of my existence that is summer 2026 X-X
my summer started perfect, I came home (to the loml NYC) from school in l8 august b/c my finals @ uni finished super early and I started a job @ an art gallery as an attendant. That shit was so much fun + I was talking to this guy from hinge and he was the sweetest ever. We went on a date and genuinely it was one of the best days of my life.
But. Um. He freaked out and pulled away. And then ghosted me. And while he was ghosting me I went on a vacation but was just sad the whole time (-n-)
I felt so bad for my family I wuz such a debbie downer.
Then my second job (summer camp counselor) started in mid June. WHICH STARTED GREAT.... I WAS HAVING A SWELL TIME W/MY FRIENDS AND I WAS KILLING IT AT THE JOB ITSELF AND UGH THAT WAS GOOD.
Still wuz sad about this guy though :(
AND THEN IN MID JULY, ON MY DAY OFF, he replied 2 my instagram story. He apologized for treating me poorly and like I was stupid, and so I said....
"I'll give u another chance." (I am weak willed and believe his apology)
SO since then we've kinda been talking a tiny, tiny, bit. He doesn't text me as much as he used to which is sucky because I just really like talking to him.
After he reached out again we planned a date: on my day off last week he was gonna come pick me up from my job and we were gonna hang out. But. He. Slept. Through. It.
and I was so pissed and sad and gah it ruined my whole day.
I got a text at 4pm that day saying he felt bad, missed the time he was supposed to leave, wouldn't make it in time, and that he genuinely thinks I should just block him because he feels like an idiot.
But I'm a patient person, and mistakes happen. So I just told him to call me so we could talk about it. (Obviously I made it clear I was upset... but I said I won't be upset forever, so this doesn't necessarily mean we r done.)
We called. it was nice. I basically told him he needs to lock in, and then we just yapped for 20 mins. UGH I HATE HOW MUCH I LIKE YAPPING WITH HIM BECAUSE IT HARDLY GETS TO HAPPEN.
So now the plan is when I'm home from work in a week, we'll hang. And if he fucks up again I'm done.
But between now and then I'm just anxious and burnt out from spending the past 8 weeks in the woods and not seeing my bed or my cat or my parents and i'm just so bleghhhhhh.
Sorry this isn't that positive of a blog, but I need to let my feelings out somewhere >o<
HOW HAS UR SUMMER BEEN????I WANNA HEAR ABOUT IT!
@losercoded -- 8/10/26
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