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o/ hello fellow Rewindians (still workshopping that one), it’s been quite some time since I’ve been active on here and a lot has changed for me in the past few months. My initial goal in getting on here was to start a blog cataloging my adventures and creative endeavors, as well as meet like minded artists and friends along the way. 

Needless to say, I’ve not been doing a gr8 job on that first front. (whoops) As a matter of fact, I have yet to even finish my page and it has sat in its unfinished st8 for several months. I have multiple DM’s I’ve yet to reply to, and overall I’ve kinda been half assing it :/ 

Tbh, I’ve just been burnt out. I picked butchery back up to raise capital to begin production on my debut album S.A.P. and quit after a mere 3 months due to shitty pay, now I’m doing FedEx for the last few months I need to endure before I can go back to freelance film work. Something I’m also quite disspassion8 about, but something that gives me far gr8er control over my time and autonomy.

I also recently went no contact with the only person I’ve ever loved (romantically) because of underlying resentment and feelings of being unseen/worthless. I’ve made it a bad habit to curse myself for not being strong enough to stick it out atp, and I miss them every day, despite the nagging feeling I made the correct decision in the end. Despite my regrets, I know that they’ll be happier this way, because all we knew how to do was suffer with eachother.

N-ywayz, I’ve got some big stuff planned in the next 6-8 months and a personal website I’ll be linking to my profile going up in the near future. I love this website and I’ll try to spend more time here when I can.

In the meantime, t8ke care of yourselves. And if you have someone special, cherish them, even if it’s not perfect.

2dal00 ;^}