Need advice for this guy I like!

There is this one guy I like, I feel pathetic and disgusting but I genuinely do like him. He is super sweet and he’s nice to my younger brother (means a lot to me). I suck at initiating convos unless we are in a game and we have no periods together in school!

Honestly he keeps sending me mixed signals and idk what to think.

He isn’t just sweet in this himbo way he has this sarcastic and funny personality that I adore about him, he does this smirk every time we see each other in the hallways and I smirk back.

My heart flutters everytime we interact and I have liked him for 2 years. Last year in seventh grade I suppressed my feelings and I never told my friends about crushes because I was raised to think they are shameful.

Now that Im telling them, I feel free but idk how to talk, I have never confessed so I am totally content with just being friends, but I just wanna be close to him in anyway!

Ik it’s a long rant and grammar sucks but I am on a phone sooo.