never open old digital cameras

i decided to look at my somewhat broken digital cameras (one of them doesn't work at all) that i haven't touched in like 2 years and i found pictures from when i was like nine with the girl who would be my lesbian awakening and my first crush. 

the worst part is i don't know if she's even alive. i haven't spoken to her, let alone seen her, in probably 7 years. i doubt i'm reoccurring in her mind like she is in mine.

i think counter on my life span was just sliced into thirds. 

ouhhh this is not a nice feeling.

i'm getting off for tonight. 

goodnight guys.