New Old Me

I wrote this message the 26th of february but I never actually published it, I planned on doing it on reddit but I never understood how.

I MAY FEEL WEIRD OR STUPID OR FAKE IF I THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH SO I'LL JUST POST IT.

I'm doing it now out of curiosity and because i felt like I wanted to share It.

(phrases written between (--) are the ones I added today)

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From a couple years back, I don't completely remember how I were, what I thought, what I felt.

I do have memories, even of things that made me uncomfortable or just a random school test, althought with no emotional attachment to them.

(-Or maybe I'm overreacting and it's the normal amount of memories. How much is the normal amount? I'm posting this because I'm curious to hear other people's perspectives-)

But I just can't seem to know that identity (I'm not sure if I remember my face/body or if I just associate it with photos). I know that it was me and I know what my interests in general used to be since they're still the same, but I dont remember my past thoughts at all.

I know I wasn't comfortable, I know there were people I didn't like, but I don't think I feel It.

Because it's in the past so now I don't have to deal with it anymore, I'm better and more comfortable with myself and I don't feel any rage for those who I didn't like.

I get not remembering things like this from when I was little, but I need to know if even this happens to everyone.

I feel like I know those emotions but I don't feel them.

Nothing THAT bad happened to me, so is It normal, Is this what everyone feels like?

I'm sorry, I still can't manage to put my feelings into words.

Recently I found myself feeling more emotional.

I feel like I became more of a crybaby (I know it's normal and healthy to cry, don't get me wrong. But I just feel so different. I don't remember ever crying (apart from two times, but one wasn't of much importance).

It's silly because if I can't remember my thoughts and emotions, I can't say for sure that I feel different. But it's because of that that I do.