New school troubles :(

I lowkirk haven't been on here for awhile BUT, I'm at a new school and it SUCKS. The people here are so mean and it's just so different from my old school. I used to be constantly surrounded by people who think like me and it was amazing, but now it's just like, awful, idk. People make a lot of racist and homophobic jokes and it's just like, normal. That's not how it was AT ALL at my old school, we were some of the wokest people in the world, it was beautiful. 

I'm grateful that I switched schools because at my old school my ex and ex best friend are there and it like, kirks me to even think about my ex best friend and now I don't have to see them like, ever. But I miss all of my friends, I miss my old teachers, I miss my old color guard team. I quit the color guard team at my new school because they just made me feel like, awful, and I kept spending money on them and they kept treating me poorly and it was draining my wallet for no reason 😭 I can't help myself, I LOVE paying for people and if I have the opportunity to pay for someone I will but I don't want to keep myself in a position where I do something for people and they hurt me in response, I realized after I broke up with my ex that I deserve to be around people that make me feel liked and so I left the team so I wouldn't repeat a past mistake. It was SUCH a hard decision though, like, color guard is such a large part of my life :( 

Idk, people keep telling me to give this school a chance but I've already cried like, at least 5 times from this school already. Not cool. Not fun.