(photo not by me!!)
school starts on Aug 10th for me, and I switched to a new technical school; you get to do programs for what career you chose, like a magnet school for the 2nd semester
and at first that's such a neat concept! anyone who loves academics would be excited and I am!! but only for the academic part
i know absolutely no one at my new school, and it comes with a clean slate, i can shake off the really bad people pleasing i used to do, and simply do my own thing
but social anxiety has been creeping up on me for the majority of summer, turns out i'm simply a school friend and not a summer friend to my friends, so i haven't hung out with anyone from my past all summer
it gets to you after a while i don't know if i'll be cool if someone talks to me or i'll stutter and make a fool of myself 😭 it really kills me with anxiety here but i don't know what to do but wait it out
do i be extroverted and make friends and be yayayayay funny faint or introverted and quiet faint
it's so complicated i don't know what i want each side has their downsides and upsides
it feels like one big nothingburger of a thing to worry try about there are worser things in the world
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ive been feeling very similarly as im also going to a new school..
starting off anew is nice as I didnt have the best experience last year, its nerve wracking but also exciting. I dont know what to expect at all especially bcs I know barely anything about the school, enrolling last minute for convenience
I keep on thinking about how i'll interact in social situations and hope that translates to reality 🥲
I think its best to find a balance between extrovertedness and introvertedness
I wouldn't say its a nothingburger thing to worry about at all, people always say your highschool experience defines the rest of your life so of course you'd worry
hopefully both of us have an amazing year
omg im sorry for digressing but i LOVE cities aviv
bringing him up since hes on your music playlist
face pressed against the glass is in all my lighter spotify playlists
i managed to buy a Man Plays the Horn vinyl when he was still selling 🥹
by faint; ; Report