Not feeling Good

I hate being negative, I want new people i meet to think I'm positive because I really do try to be but I'm so tired and so alone no matter what I do no one likes me no one finds me interesting no one wants to be my friend

even when I'm not trying no one likes me. I'm so alone. How do I deal with this

I'm nothing when I'm not in the eyes of others and I really dislike that

I'm not a thought if no one's looking me in the eye.  No one really bothers to think about my existence unless forced to.  I'm so alone and just tired.  I just want help