im really scared im gonna continue messing up friendships/relationships
it happens every fucking time, no matter HOW hard i try to avoid it, i end up causing SOME sort of problems
i think im good with my current closest relationships for now, but last time i said that i ended up being a dickhead to him for almossttt nooo reassooonnnnnnnuuuuhhhhh
to be fair that friend did cause problems, not just for me but for everyone sooo lowkey im justified for it #delusional
im reaaallllyyy hoping i wont end up pushing my current closest ones away this time, im REALLY hoping i dontttt because i deadass love them so much GAHHHHHHHH
im 90.57% sure i have bpd cuz most my friendships usually ends up going within the same patterns: theyre the best person ever and i cant properly function without them and they cant do no wrong, next second theyre the WORST person ever theyve done nothing but bad, i feel bad about thinking about them in such a way cuz theyve deadass done nothing wrong, then i push them away, and SOMETIMES that'll just end up looping, going back to them being the most perfect person ever, etc.....
i would probably get help if it werent for my parents thinking im perfectly fine and ONLY having a semi-reliable school therapist who probably talks shit behind my back
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law
no but deadass what do you do that keeps messing it up
i thought i already said it but its mainly getting unreasonably pissed over nothing and start acting like an asshole
by autismbandu; ; Report
if you live in the US i recommend talking to your school therapist to recommend an actual therapist to your parents. if you feel that this is genuinely a reoccurring and difficult to solve issue I highly recommend it gangy
by law; ; Report