Nov-3/2026

The thing is, usually, I would cry about this like a year ago, maybe do some weird edgy stuff from sadness and embarassment (being a dissapointment) like uh... SH usually, or crying myself to sleep. But look at me now! Im okay! Because I dont give a shit! Woohoo! Woho! Woohoo! 

Pills, man.

Genuinely saved my life.

I mean they work a bit weirdly on my brain, if I had to explain;

It was usually like this. I could not control myself AT ALL and it meant SH.

Now it is a bit more different; 

Yes. The numb emptiness in my brain. Its kinda relaxing honestly. 

When Im stressed, I feel like there js a spot in my brain that is no longer there, like, I just start thinking nothing. I dont know how to explain it. 

Think about it like closing a door while leaving a loud class and only slightly hearing them afterwards.

Talking about classes, MY FRIEND and I drew a lot today. I think he likes hanging around with me. But I still cant be sure if he is talking to me because he feels sad about the new girl. 

But I dont think someone would try to get better at drawing because of a person and getting all their motivation by just watching them can be JUST because they feel bad for them. 

Right? 

RIIIIGHT? 

Also I hope he isnt in love with me for some reason. Straight boys tend to do that. I finished many friendships because of that. 

Whatever Im still thankful to have him. 

Yay. 

Whatever its 1 am and I have two exams tomorrow. 

I should sleep A.F.

Buh Bye

LISTEN TO SPERM WASTE!!!!! (after I release the album, or just listen to the demos, they are on FriendRewind music.)