OCD

I think i have OCD. Every day my brain won’t stop thinking and working out things and processing information.

counting

I count to four in my head every time I step or do a task. For example, picking up items I do four at a time or if there are only three things i’ll tap one to count it as four.

perfectionism

I have perfectionist tendencies. I cry when i can’t do things and have huge meltdowns. I study a lot because i stress over bad grades and disappointment. I love organising and tidying things away.

germs

I’m a huge germ freak. I remember if my hands are dirty. If i touch something I won’t eat with my hands otherwise I feel contaminated and disgusting. I don’t like mixing feelings such as stroking a dog and then straight away going on my phone. I hate when people wear my glasses or touch my hands.

stress

I get scared all the time that I haven’t locked the doors or that i’ve lost something. I get super scared of being late and turn up to important things really early because i fear i’ll be late which makes me feel sick.

impulsive thoughts

Sounds bad but sometimes I imagine myself pushing people into roads and hurting people. I also imagine myself kissing people. I don’t want to imagine these things but they always reappear in my head even when I don’t agree I just can’t stop them.

There are so many more things I do but these are the main ones. I’ve taken multiple tests on google just to see, and all of them came out saying i might have OCD. I have done so much research since then and now i’m really considering.