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Movie?

By Frederick

I want to make a short film. Or perhaps a mini-series. Whichever one.

Like, really bad.

I feel as if this desire appeared quite spontaneously. Though when I ponder longer, it’s more so a feeling that has burrowed itself in the back of my brain. Because admittedly making a movie was just out of my grasp at the time.

But right now it’s summer. The atmosphere is ...I wouldn’t say optimistic but ideal for change, a transformation. I want that movie to encapsulate that. I have but a vague idea of the storyline and characters and already countless obstacles stand in my way. But I am no bitch.

Firstly, in my film I constructed it in a way where there would only be need for 2 actors. Just 2. Sadly I only have myself. I could ask one of my friends, but I know it won’t end how I want it to. This is an affair between myself and me. Besides, the other actor would need to be a man.

Secondly, I’m scared of filming someplace where strangers could be present. I don’t want my first time being riddled with anxiety and awkward pauses. I know a few isolated locations that would be great for filming, so I’ll base the events there.

Thirdly, I’ve never done anything film related like video editing, script writing or acting. I don’t have a bi budget or stellar cast, so my acting and editing will make or break this project. I’m aware that I’m putting way too much pressure but nonetheless I think it’s something to think about.

Fourthly, mother nature can be an ally one day and an enemy the next. Recent temperatures have not been promising and my filming schedule will sway the way of the weather, meaning I can’t act on passion or motivation.

Even with all these bumps in the road…I still want to make a movie. It feels necessary

I need to make a film.

Else I’ll be doomed.

Best Regards,

Frederick (filmmaker)