oh no... I'm so cringe :((

Vent Blog + Public Diary 

ok so BOOM. Im probably gonna do this every once in a blue moon but that's besides the point. and majorrrr cringe warning lowkey but anyways 

My week has genuinely been full of shit and I just wanna get it off my chest. so first of all my period happened and I got insanely depressed like a huge dip in mood and therapy didn't help, I even called my mom to go home that's how bad I felt :// guacward! And it was a whole other thing cause I just feel like no one gets when I say I always feel depressed and constant suidical thoughts and its NOT teenage angst or periods I swar!!! I don't think my therapist or mom believes me when I say that. 

second is how I feel with a close friend, I kinda have a major crush on them but they don't like me like that and I know that but I can't help it cause I need to be closer to them. my therapist says I should talk to other people but I cant. I just want my friend to love me but I'm so shit at talking TO them. and I started getting intense jealousy and selfish thoughts like I hate them but I need them so bad and other stuff.... idk...

third of all is fucking school. heh.. yup! I'm a chud and a fucking retard. I'm barely passing my classes but I cant find the motivation to participate most days and I just cant seem to care about whether I fail or not anymore, it doesn't matter I'm a chudding chudddd I'm chudddd,, no joke I'm so stupid I'm never making it far in life!!!!! I don't even know what I wanna do after school, I severely doubt I'm gonna graduate, I don't have a job, and I cant drive. like genuinely what does he even do 😭😭😭😭😭 

I'm cringe and im chud its BEEN over son🥀💔

ok that's all bye for like a month