Ok another serious but I feel like I can vent here

So I get bullied a lot either for my sexuality or style just how I act ok I’m a social person who isn’t nervous to be myself but I always feel like there are people watching me ok back on the topic so there was this guy I’ll just call him dude I’m so dude use to bully me during PE cause I’m not that physically strong ok so one day I was playing pickle ball on the ball wall at school and this dude kept asking me “have you been neutered*” and I didn’t respond and then he started to call me a bitch telling me to respond while asking me if I got my balls chopped off and then he started calling me a faggot and I didn’t say anything I just tried to play and he use to always target me during PE cause I’m the gay one the one who is bad at everything and I hate guys that once they find out your gay there like “eww don’t get a crush on me” like your the last guy I would fall head over heels for he’s like your average white boy he has pale ass white skin a blond perm used the N word like it’s engraved in his mind and thoes ugly ass shorts that he sags and shows off his underwear like he’s completely not my type he’s so annoying and I hate him so much and he’s still a problem to this day