Old ‘poem’

TW/CW FOR THIS:

just know that this was made when I was mentally Unstable and made as a vent

-suicide mentions, sh mentions, gore and whatevrr mentioned// anywyas

Yes I know this is corny leave me ALONE 💔💔

Truly, I love you

I love you with all my heart so much

But at the same time I want to crush you

To have the feeling of being the one who hurts others

You understand the feeling, don’t you

You understand how it felt to be used

To be hurt

To be treated like nothing but a doll

You understand 

Just like me

So I think you’ll understand when I say I want to hurt you

The same way we’ve been hurt

I want to leave bruises on your skin

I want to cut you with a knife

I want to see blood drip down your body as drops of tears flow down your cheeks

I want to control you

I want to use you

I want to be the one who hurts you

I don’t want to be the smaller one anymore

I’m stronger than you

Taller than you

Bigger than you

Despite that we’re the same in the end

Soulmates

We’re meant to be together 

You’re meant to be mine

I’m meant to be yours

We’re meant to be each other's other half

I love you
God I love you

I just want to rip out my heart

And give it to you

I want to hurt myself

I want to cut myself

I want you to feel my pain

I want you to drink my blood

Combine our pulse

Combines our veins

Our nerves

Our cells

Our mind

I want you to become a part of me

So I can feel every little thing from you

Every time you dare to cut yourself

Everytime you cry

Every moment of despair you feel

I want to experience it too

I love you with everything in my soul

It feels like I’m going crazy

I want to make you feel inferior 

I want to hurt you 

To scold you

To hurt you

I want to scratch your arms that they bleed

To sink my teeth into your chest 

To wipe my blood on yours 

God I hate you 

It makes me so happy

I love it

I can go from loving to wanting you dead

I never knew heaven could exist

Until you came in

God had never existed in my world

But to me

You are God itself

Not just a concept

Not just a myth

A belief 

No, you’re real

You’re right here

Oh God, I love you

Please 

Please just let me be free
Allow me to trap you

Allow me to consume your heart

Your brain

Your skin

Your eyes

Your lungs

Your organs

Everything

Just let me eat you alive

Let me hear your screams of pain

The blood gushing out from the rugged marks on your skin

The gurgling of you choking 

Ah 

I want to hear you

To feel you
I want to see you, God

Let me see you

Let me feel every crevice

Every little muscle

Every little bump or ruined skin

I just want to feel everything 

Let me 

Just let me do this

And peace will be bestowed to us all

God 

Please

Just let me be happy

Why do you punish me

Why do you make me feel this way

I want it to end

I love you
God 

I love you