Omfg i think i'm in love with my bestfriend (shitty poetry)

Jealousy takes a hold of me,

And shakes my composure. 

Oblivion blinds me until there is nothing I can do.

I knew before, yet tried to ignore it.

Fear of change and losing you.

Now I've lost you in another way.

I thought you could be forever,

But I'm a hypocrite; I was planning on moving on from you.

Now I can't.

You've done nothing wrong, yet I've wronged you.

And now I'm second-guessing every word and brush of skin.

Fear holds my tongue and doubt pushes me back.

I'd rather not risk what we have than risk my feelings not being true.