one of my also biggest flaws

i have a hard time acting as if i like people. whenever i have to make a decision with someone i act as if it's a problem to me or if i hate them. due to my lack of ability to feel love most problems kind of ARE annoying to me so i forget to remember that i am actually friends with this person and that i should be making decisions in their best interests.

for example, if a friend asked me for support, id probably tell them to look at referring to a therapist or getting a diagnosis or calling a hotline themselves (i let people vent to me but if i want me to fix a problem i can get pretty rude) and then months later realise 'oh shit! since im FRIENDS with this person and im meant to LIKE THEM i should've probably gave them links to websites and said i was gonna be there for them and stuff like that'. i lowk feel like such a bitch for this even though i know i cant control my emotions. i wish i could like people just so i could actually care about them rather than having to learn that i have to gaf. i wonder how easy life is for people who love.

i am working on all of this i just wanted to make a blog abt it because i still forget that im meant to actually help/care sometimes. sorry to all the people ive hurt by not giving a gaf too hard. really sorry. also im changing the theme of my profile soon. okay bye.