ONE OR THE OTHER

one of my least favorite life experiences, as a nonbinary person, is how socially engrained the gender binary has become, how dependent peoples minds have become on it, and just not changing in generally really, but thats besides the point, back to gender

i came out semi-publically as nonbinary roughly 4 years ago. now, understand that, as an enby, i have always presented mostly masculine. this is mostly out of necessity, my wardrobe is just set that way, but i also have never particularly cared about it. im a person who wears whats comfortable, the clothing on my body is a piece of fabric cut in a certain way.

i have had to largely swallow the pill that, the majority of people are going to just see me as either a man (which they wont ever admit to) or just see me as a weird third thing, some tumor on the group of "normal" people. they'll never admit it, but they see me - see us, all of us enbies really - as our birth genders who are just confused. the average trans or queer person will face this scrutiny for as long as our world believes this binary must stand true.

i mean, think about it for more than 5 seconds and it seems really obvious how arbitrary most of it is! the clothes we wear, roles we fufill, personalities we inhabit, hell, the people we are meant to be, none of this needs to be dictated by some cell being oriented a certain way at birth. who gives a fuck?