Oo another vent how original

Like my other post, dni if you're our ex, any of his friends or anyone we know irl

I know for someone who outwardly looks like they're over their ex, we're doing a poor job at actually acting so but there's so much shit happening rn that the fan's js covered in it.

Our ex keeps posting about how we abused him, not mainly about it, but it'll be in almost every post. We know we shouldn't be looking at his posts, especially cus he blocked us, we're trying to stop but we genuinely get the worst anxiety attacks about it if We're not perceiving everything. Like what if he doxxes us or something??

Anyways, we're mentioned in almost every post he puts out and it's so god awful. We wish we could tell him all of the reasons why we aren't an abuser or take our anger out or something but that'll only put us in deeper shit, and it'll prove his story more. 

But its so sickening and maddening how we have so much shit spoken about us, we can't even ask for it to be taken down because he's never named us, the only reason we know it's about us is because we're his ONLY ex. 

And to make it 10x worse, we can't even fully believe he abused us like our therapist said, we keep thinking that we somehow didn't say enough context or intentionally completely forgot everything relating to our own part to play. 

So now we have to grin and bear someone smearing our name and being unable to change anything about the situation, whilst also trying to figure out if we're a good person or not.

We'll probably delete this in an hour BC of anxiety or something else

Somebody sedate us ffs