Owie!

Lately my leg has been getting REALLY bad. I feel like it’s been rapidly decreasing in function. I can hardly walk up or down stairs without the help of a handrail, or by hauling half of my big self up the stairs. I did my exercises, something I don’t do them often, just because it’s so bad.

Honestly, aside from the constant whimpering and the embarrassment and the embarrasing achievement of attaining what is most likely sciatica at 14, I don’t really care. It’s painful but it means that I’ll get more care — I have other problems with my legs (knock knees and my left leg being shorter than my right) that’ll finally come into focus. It also means I generally feel more valid in my pain. Hopefully I can get a crutch or the green light to use my cane at school again, because.. I can barely use my left leg..? It’s like it’s getting ready for amputation. Numb as hell. But it’s fine because idgaf. Also my life is getting better for me so it’s okay.