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Hello!!!! This is my first blog post on friendrewind, like ever LOL. I haven't been on here long, and usually I post these to Spacehey, but man this site lowk rocks. It has so many features I wish Spacehey had, or planned to have(especially when regarding simplifying customization). I was a supporter on Spacehey, cause i think it's super important we bring back social media websites from the early 2000s, as there was something so real and raw about it, while keeping everything we've learned with modern social media to really make sure these sites can thrive as they should. I understand that it's still kinda early in the site's life, but I'm hoping that people will stay engaged here, as I think a site like this can really make a footing in the internet if enough people cared LOL. I'm definitely going to be using Friendrewind(or at least try), thanks to the video section(as I finally have a place to upload my videos of me ranting about a series I just read/watched LOL), plus it seems like there are more cool people here, so this might become my #2 fav social website right next to xxafterlife loll. Anyways, onto yapping! 

Well, as of the time I'm writing this, I'm starting school in a week!

yeah, im trying to hype myself up as much as I can. I'm retaking Principles of Chem 1, and 3 online classes…… when I suck at online classes…… 

Now, to be fair, I took two online classes so far, and did quite well in them; one was a physical science class, and the other a physical fitness class LOL. The only issue is that I was homeschooled for the entirety of 5th grade up to 9th grade of my school life, and I do not have a fun history with online schooling, so I'm just really worried about my ability to keep up with 3 online classes, plus a fucking chemistry class that I already failed once because I wasn't locked in enough xC. Then on top of it all, I'm working a job, and I'm broke as hell!! The upside about my classes is that I only go to campus on Monday and Wednesday - so my gas isn't suffering, but my car has an exhaust leak or whatever, so it's munching on gas so bad. I hate getting gas so much rn because $40 at the cheapest place I can get gas only gets me ¾ of a tank filled now, which is terribly knowing I have to drive to work, school, and drop my brother off to school as well 😭😭 I feel so busy all the time, and i know its about to get worse when I start my commute back to school. 

Speaking of my new job, it's been okay??????????????? As some may know, I have a post of me ranting about my previous workplace(that was a restaurant), and how much I dreadedddd that place. I can say a good amount of the coworkers I met were cool, its not like they were evil or anything, but the work environment didn't feel as welcoming as it should in a place where teamwork is a must; plus it wasn't as organized as I hoped it wouldve been(including how rushed the training was), and i just cant work to my fullest thanks to that. Now, my new job is with CVS - this is my first ever retail position, and it's been a trip lol. There's so much to learn, and only being here for like 3 weeks makes that very apparent, but the manager, supervisors, and coworkers are all very understanding and willing to help, so it makes everything so much easier to process. I think I'm glad I was able to find a position here, as there have been days where there isn't much to do(it's actually quite boring from time to time if I cant find something to occupy myself during downtime, but i manage) so, I know that I will be able to get some time in for studying if I really need to, which is ideal!  For $15/hr, it's quite nice, so I cannot complain so far. I've unfortunately already had an incident where one of the registers came up short the day I was on shift with a shift supervisor i hadn't met before, and the manager let me know that if it happens again it could be a level one write-up, but he mentioned he doesn't think it was me, but im still kinda worried, so im trying my damndest to double count money during big transactions when I can 😭.  Hoping that when my first paycheck shows up, I'll be able to get a new laptop, and maybe my nostril piercings, but a girl can dream, esp with how my gas cost me every paycheck.

One thing about the upcoming semester's endeavors I'm excited about is packing my  lunches again. It's so much fun to do, it makes me actually want to put effort into the food I bring for lunch, especially since my chemistry class is scheduled to have its lab like 15mins after lecture(which is the first course I'll ever have like this) so I'm going to be bringing lunches for 11 am and needing to bring snacks for that in-between period, because aint no way im going to be on a empty stomach for a 3hr & 50min CHEMISTRY lab 😭. I already get annoyed when data wasn't giving the results it was supposed to in my bio lab, so ik I'm gonna be tired for this. I know I posted pictures of the little banana bread skulls I made for work, but it's hitting me I'm probably going to be making them a lot more this fall, which is exciting-ish, because the kitchen is just a lab for edible stuff, but man, meal prepping is the worst. It takes up so much time that could be spent doing fun things; however, being an adult means that fun things must be put on hold to actually enjoy those fun things T~T. Who knows, I might end up showing off some of my lunches I make if they look real cutesy and stuff, but we'll see when we get there. I am quite excited to prep my coffee again, because iced coffee was my saviour during my 8ams, and after discovering Pischio creamer, MAN I'M HYPEDDD OML I LOVE ICE COFFEEE. I recently started using Comomners coffee(instant coffee) too because it makes everything so much easier than the Keurig my mom had(that broke). 

 

There's just been so much going on in my life this year, so I'm really looking forward to fall bringing a new season to my life- from losing family members, my relationship with my father worsening, a decently shitty job, and just realizing that my life is way drastically different than what I expected when I was 18. I'm only just now coming to the acceptance that I'm probably not going to end up in dental school, and looking for different options for a career that still has me in a medical position in some way. It's just been rough, and my presence on my socials, where all my friends usually communicate with me, very much shows that, and I'm not really proud of it(obviously). One thing is for certain: music has been really carrying me through it all like it always has, alongside my interest too lol. Hoping that I'll manage to get some time to find a therapist for my mental needs this fall too, but idk if that'll be possible, especially since one of my inquiries is getting screened for autism, and the current administration of the country is highkey trying to make anything medical related harder to be seen about(regardless of if it's a major concern of your wellbeing). Idk about y'all, but to me, I truly believe that 22 is the worst age ever, just thanks to my personal experience; hopefully it can only become better for the rest of the year, right???? right??????????? 

I usually have more stuff to post, which is why I try to section everything in my post by topics(esp if they relate to each other in some way), but honestly I don't have much this time around lol! My summer has been uneventful technically*; therefore, there's not much for this patchnote entry. Might post about my new laptop whenever I get my hands on that(or even just talk about it if it all goes awry). Oh, also I'm probably going to redo my introduction post from spacehey for xxafterlife & friendrewind, so if you're interested in getting to know little ol me, then look out for it at some point; I'll post it whenever I get there. 

anyways, uhmmm - the world ends with you, kingdom hearts is light, and have yourself a damned good one