people are assholes and you shouldnt ever trust them - Sadnut

there was a woman i talked to we're the same age and we were mates right

in school we were in the same class so we'd yap

never in any romantic interest 

she's gay and not my type anyway

and like

fast forward several months

suddenly she sats me down with two of our mutual mates

and she tells me that because of who i am we can nolonger be friends an that includes the two other moots 

pressed to explain why, she spews out a series of complete lies and isnults against me an my character

and turns out that

all

all of my friends

sided with her 

incldign

my best friend and crush

and 

now

any time i see my ex best friend |they them

i am filled with 

fear and dread and grief

i wish i could look at the person i love with love rather than terror

being their friend changed me fundamentally

like 

now im emo

i was a fucking weirdo before i didnt even have a style

and im non binary and i realized im autistic and that i have narcissist personality disorder and everything

i dont know where id be without my best friend

and now

i wear a facemask at school because i dont want them to look at me

ive begun to avoid every area they go