possibly starting a new school

so, today is wednesday which means i have therapy. 

i've been struggling socially at my current school: i don't connect well with my peers and have been getting picked on a wee bit by a circle of people that are supposed to be my friends. it's especially hard because out school population is very small. we have maybe 70 kids who go in person, and the number who actually shows up? much smaller. so it's not like i can just avoid these people -- their in so many of my classes.

i go to this alternative education school, because i was getting severely bullied in middle school. but because i go to an alt. school, i don't get the traditional high school experience. we don't have any sports teams, we don't have band or choir, literally nothing. we don't even have a PE class. i've been excelling in my classes, and i'm not challenged educationally. 

today in therapy we discussed other options with my mom. my mom wants me to go to a public school again but it's so very daunting to me. in public schools, i know myself -- i would drown under the pressure of traditional classes and workload. i am not good at self motivation to do things, even for the things i like to do including making my zines. i was failing in middle school, i can only imagine what would happen if i went to a regular high school.

but my therapist suggested applying for a 504 plan that can help me with my classes, and instantly that gave me hope. i hadn't even thought that was an option for me, but with it presented as an option i could take i feel like i could actually succeed in a public school like i so desperately want to.

next wednesday, i have a meeting planned with the principal of this new school. to see the school, meet some teachers, get the lay of the land, etc. 

i'm so excited. i think i could actually do well and find some peers that i could call friends.