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the way I used to be so addicted to smoking amazes me. now I look back on it and laugh in a way. it's sad and I wouldn't have been here if I did not have access to those things, and I appreciate what I gained out of it at the time. but when my system is cleared out the downloads I get are insane. my guidance is actually there. I feel aligned spiritually. connected to source. the magnetism is ON. life just feels magical & like a movie. the funny part is, I tap out when I get too aware of it. like I'm some pawn in the puzzle we call life & I just don't want to be put into place most of the time. I guess this is just what it's like to return to spirituality. for me at least. I feel like people forget and myself included, that it isn't always pretty. when I tapped back in last year, I went through hell & back these past few months. still am for sure. source will sure make you learn stuff one way or another lol.