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I find it crazy how you can send me tik toks while still ignoring me. I sent you that message 2 hours ago and for 2 hours you have been sending me tik toks and been on discord. I swear everyone is just secretly out to make my life a living hell. I might just start ignoring everyone except my girlfriend to see how they fucking feel.

"Why don't you text us first?" "Well I'm always here to talk." "I'll always answer, I'm never really doing anything anyway." "Dude just call or text, I'm free all day."

Why does everyone lie to me to make me feel better in the moment? You do know that telling me you'll always be there whenever I wanna hang out or talk and then NOT being there doesn't actually help, right? I thought this was so fucking obvious. Just tell me you don't care to hang out.

Oh and he just sent me another tik tok as I'm typing this, still waiting for him to text me back. WHY DO I EVEN TRY. WHY? WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT?

I miss my girlfriend.