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Maybe they were right.. maybe I should have killed myself.. maybe I should have killed myself when I had the chance... I mean maybe 8 year old me was right, maybe I should've been dead by 13... But now look I have all these health issues, I refuse to tell people what's actually wrong because I'd I do I'm getting put in a mental hospital, or even medicine... But it's fine because at least I'm here making other people happy.  And I'm not asking for pity, I'm not asking for "oh no don't do it everyone will miss you" if they actually missed me they would've seen the signs, they would've listened when I spoke they would've listened for my cries for help.. I just need someone who will actually listen to me, instead of me always listening to them I just want someone to shut up and listen to me for once.. and maybe a deep hug would be nice... But nah I'ma keep my emotions locked out and away before I get hurt again. ☹