I’m tweaking rn, I feel small and bigger than the universe at the same time, I feel like I’m watching my life in 3rd perspective, telling myself not to do something then watching me do it, I have a constant desire to stop my day to day cycle but I never seem to no matter how horrible I seem, I feel my body is breaking down, tired, slowly, painfully, bloody, and I try to stop and I can’t, I feel my eyes in my head and I feel that earth move, the moment I’m left alone I fall over, nearly throw up, and feel like I have camera all around me and I’m seeing each pov at once, like I can’t control anything and I’m just a limp body to the will of my dumb mind, I think to get out my feelings musically but I’m scared my ability fades, as does my will to be and my soul, I don’t know what i do, just keep going day to day? If someone asks how I am I say fine but I feel hollow on the inside, like I have no emotion and too much at once, and I lie and say I was kidding but I don’t kid, i feel myself fading from myself
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Ganymede
Hey, you should look into depersonalization-derealization disorder and get help for it if u can :( I wish u all the best and u can always talk 2 me if u need someone to talk 2
thank you unknown twin🤞
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also after looking at your page iv decided your peak and we besties now
by Sonsai; ; Report
oh em gee thank u! also ur pfp is THE BEST deftones album. (I seriously hope u get better, u might be finding it cringe now that ppl r comenting cause i feel like that sometimes but genuinley good on u for venting and helping urself <33)
by Ganymede; ; Report
i agree so much, and thak you i dont norm yap but i figured i should spread my troubles and woes to the world, (also if this means anything im seeing soad live in 5 months🔥)
by Sonsai; ; Report
proud of u twin bro xerces is so peak i love xerces i love xerces i LOVE xerces (ratsratsrats and diamond eyes probably close second tho wbu) AND OHMDS UR SOOOO LUCKY LIKE ROCK/METAL BANDS NEVER COME HERE I MEAN MY BLOODY VALENTINE CAME BUT THATS IT (i didnt go D:)
by Ganymede; ; Report
my top 5 deftones: #1:cherry waves, #2: sextape, #3 be quiet and drive (far away), #4: please please please let me get what i want, and 5: is xerces, i needa listen to more albums in full coz i sound like a fake fan i swear im not
by Sonsai; ; Report
LOL u dont dw abt it, its all peak choices koi no yokan, around the fur, diamond eyes and white pony r peak (tho theyre like also super popular so uve prolly alr listened 2 them)
by Ganymede; ; Report
i need deftones cd's so bad D; i have a pretty good collection of cd's but NO DEFTONES?!?!
by Sonsai; ; Report
bro i only have k-pop cds...
bur like its cause k-pop cds r wayyy better for the same price, u get a cd, poster, concept book and other stuff so i usually js burn my rock cds. Burning cds fun and its cheaper in the long run u shld try it if u can! ^^
by Ganymede; ; Report
yeah i needa get a burner, i still want proper cd's for artists i like and dont mind supporting, like marlyn manson's a bad dude so il just pirate him but deftones are good lads
by Sonsai; ; Report
yeah true i do still wanna support deftones and the cover albums so pretty, I js hate how overpriced cds r (tho obviously its not the fault of the artists themselves) i got my cd burner cheap cause its from a chinese website but it doesnt ship outside of china i dont think 😭😭😭
by Ganymede; ; Report
wait il try and find my collection and send it
by Sonsai; ; Report
oki!!!!
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so photos hate me
by Sonsai; ; Report
il put it in my images
by Sonsai; ; Report
u can dm me if u want
by Ganymede; ; Report
it'll work then ^^
by Ganymede; ; Report
i think it works now, check it out!
by Sonsai; ; Report
okkk
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Templeofthestardog
Bro if you need someone to talk to im always here to listen, and i mean it
because i made the title a fire emoji when the notification popped up i thought you replied fire emoji
😭😭😭🤞🤞🤞
by Sonsai; ; Report
Seriously tho i hope youre ok and i dont want you feeling like you cant talk to anybody about this stuff
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thank you twinion
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