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The only solution would be to subdue my anger in this case, I don't want to hurt anyone.

I want to distance myself away from everyone, but that would also go against my mission. I'm supposed to love people.  But i don't want people to hurt me. I don't want them to see me for who I really am. Often times I get urges to stop appearing like a human. I don't want to show others that I can feel something, I want people to get bored of me and leave me alone. I want to stop talking completely, I want to respond to them with a blank face all year round. 

That wouldn't do any good. I'm only doing nice things for my friends. Why can't I just do nice things for others, too? I don't like others. Everyone else exhausts me. A lot make fun of me, and it's not like I care that much, but it's getting hard to be kind when I can't connect with the majority.  Even if I did do something nice it wouldn't be sincere. How do I learn to be kind to people again?