I feel like this is a bit dramatic  but who cares. Honestly, i don't really like opening up to anyone.. But when i try to talk to other people or communicate with my friends i feel like they barely care. I don't even like texting first anymore because it makes me feel they're forced to reply even if they already assured me... That's not even half of my problems, i genuinely feel like I HAVE to be the one who will communicate with others or seek for them. Like.. I genuinely feel so lonely because is my presence that forgettable for my friends or people who know me barely text me? I mean we all have lifes but you must get my point. i have never ever felt NEEDED in my life even with my own family. It also doesn't help that i get really depressed sometimes, and my friends are absolutely SHIT to me. (encouraging me to hurt myself more). I've tried asking my mom for help, but she doesn't really give a shit.