I feel like in my whole life i was just lucky. People called me smart, but i never felt special. I always felt alone and left behind. I've always been bad with human interactions. I'm actually in highschool studying software development, and i always thought i'd work with it in the future, but i've been feeling really unsure recently. Everything is AI, i cant concentrate, i dont know how to study, i just consume slop, and once again i feel like im being left out. I feel like whatever i do i'll never stand out. I'll never have the penthouse i dream with. I feel like at best I'll spend a life suffering doing a job I don't like.
I daydream about being unimaginably rich, about being a celebrity who is treated like a living god, about being a monk in the Tibet mountains, about sailing in a boat and visiting wonderful beaches aroud the world. But its all fake. Me and you, and everyone else, we are all stuck in this horrible reality. Beautiful places burn and turn into landfills. We could never destroy the world, but we are destroying its beauty.
We are wasting our lifes.
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Opal
Sorry for mini philosophy lesson, but here:
Being rich probably sucks tho. Typically, being happy comes a lot from seeing the beauty in the little things (imo/from my perspective). When ur rich and have everything, the largness of everything becomes so normal that the little things seem boring. Don’t seek happiness in materialistic things, but in the beauty of everything. Yes, the world can really suck, but if you only look at those parts of it, then you’ll continue being miserable. (Plus, if you really hate the fact that we’re destroying the world, try to get everyone to do smth about that and fix it.) Focus on the beauty when you want to be happy and focus on the bad stuff when you want to fix it or when you just want to be sad (bc it’s ok to want to be sad sometimes). (Don’t ignore the bad tho. Delulu ain’t the solulu)
caramelll
ur so right