pretty and pretty bored

i have some bullshit music on from last fall that is un-weeded (i havent weeded out the songs that dont fit the fall playlist) but i guess im weeding it out now. i played fortnite with alex and that horde rush gamemode is so bad that we laughed until we couldn't breathe. we also did pillars and shit talked each other the whole time and THEN we got a victory royale on the first and only battle royale match of the day.

oh my god. how is it 10 pm already. i did get up super late because the neighbors roosters and ducks were being loud. more incentive to move away up north into a city. but i actually prefer chicken and duck noises over city noises most of the time. i used to have a mix of bird noises and train noises back in germany.

it's crazy to sit here in clothes that i got back in germany that still smell like germany. its a clean yet weirdly sexy smell. this pajama top i have on is where the smell is coming from. it smells like your hot friend taking you to her house by the woods to sleep over and do some bad things. the playlist makes it feel so close yet so far. i made it in germany to walk around town with in the fall. maybe i could see a similar fall again up in maryland. it weirdly calls me still, but new york or virginia might be nice. new jersey's there too but i don't really know what's there. i just wanna find a nice place to go to college. online college is so, so boring. and i can't just stay here.