procrastination and issues with my family

I've been heavily procrastinating working on my website, which is kinda dumb considering the fact I love coding. Not working on it makes me feel large amounts of guilt for absolutely no reason. No one is forcing me to do it; I shouldn't be pressuring myself into doing something I don't want to do. On another note, I saw my dad today for the first time in a couple weeks. It's been getting harder to see him lately because of the fact I realized I was trans... He and my aunt are the only ones in my family who don't know. I'm too afraid to tell him because I'm pretty sure he's transphobic & misogynistic, although that's just me piecing things together from his stance on gender and the way he treats my mom (he treats them like because they were born a woman it makes them worth less than a man). I'll have to tell him eventually because he keeps forcing himself into my life... oh well.