Question

Is it just me that makes up an entire life in their head like every detail like for instance I have this I life in my head that’s like my life now but instead I their is this guy he looks like Gerard way and we met in a graveyard and he’s five years older he’s rlly kind and shit like a “dream guy” we chat in the graveyard everyday and he helps me w school n stuff we are best friends as we get older in this fake life we start to date and we are in a band together I play guitar and he sings and I just imagine the fan edits of us is that weird am I exposing myself here

Another thing is I spend all day in this world like from when I go to bed to the morning i could be doing anything and I would still be thinking of him and my whole fake life 

Apparently I’ve done this all my life one thing abt me is that im autistic so that might be another sign so my autism 

I also think some of my irl friends and family are affected by it bc I don’t rlly make new friends bc I’m always think and wanting a friend like the guy in my dream 

I surch  it up and the internet said it’s a good idea to write down the fake love story’s and make fictional stories to help but idk I just don’t want to be like this forever I wish he was real if I started a small book on here abt him and out story would ppl read it idk it’s just makes me so sad to realise he’s not really real 

Does anyone do this or am I insane.