Quick little rant because I’m a hormonal teenager

Like genuinely sucks so much right now. I put myself under so much stress because I yearn for validation and I also am a people pleaser. I also have this reputation as someone really smart and I’m insecure about my looks so I’m trying to stay smart and pretty at the same time. I feel like no guy will ever really like me for anything more than intimacy because they all use me for one thing and one thing only. I’m under so much stress sometimes and I’ve also been through soo much that has made me such a jealous person. I got jealous just because a teacher that always called me her favorite called someone her star. I genuinely just need someone to talk to. On top of that, my friends are only friends with me because they want me to tutor them, help them with their homework/give them answers, or because they just are bored and need someone to talk to.