random life update

- rash on my neck from either itching it with uncured gel polish on my nails OR stress rash

- rash on arm but it looks different than the one on my neck

- my first important assignment for the quarter will probably be turned in late

- prof for my other class straight up does not accept late work

- relapsed. i was clean from self harm for about two years and five months. i cant tell if this is one small fuck up or if this is going to ruin everything. i hope its one small fuck up that i can just forget about

- i played fortnite and among us with new friends from the beach house server

- my studying playlist actually helps me study

- alex very mildly pisses me off but i would rather kill myself than tell him why. and contrary to popular belief i like being alive