rant #2

bro tell me why love is so embarrassing when you think about it. You give time, trust, your energy, your favorites, late night thoughts, your whole heart like it's a goody basket - and for what? so they  can turn and act weird w someone else the second its difficult? 

Getting cheated on rlly fucking hurts it messes w your head because suddenly all the memory's feel fake ash. Every I miss you texts, all the promises and all the times you swore they were different meanwhile they were out hear playing like a deck of cards. The worse parts when they act all sorry and try to change your mind after getting caught. Not cus they actually cared but because they got exposed.

People love saying "if they cheat it says more about them then you" which is true, but it still really hurts. Because now you're stuck wondering why you weren't enough and what you could have done better which is messed up most relationships end because of dishonesty, boredom, or needing attention every second.

Then some how the cheat wants a second chance. writing stupid meaningless paragraphs , posting sad songs, talking about how everyone makes mistakes. Like no cheating isn't a "accident" you had 100 choices before hand that YOU chosen. And knew it would hurt someone afterwards

"Love" makes people ignore all the red flags too. You'll just sit there defending someone who barely gives on fuck and love the person they pretended to be at the end and beginning. The one day it click you fell in love with potential not reality.

What I definitely don't get is when someone has a fucking kink of asking there own partner who wants to be loyal cheat- in the end cheating changes the way of looking at someone. It teaches that words mean nothing w/o actions behind them. Anyone can say "I love you" staying loyal is the part that matters.