Rant of the day.

It's been a while since i've posted a rant here.. Or a blog. As usual, i wouldn't really wanna be sappy or say whatever I want in this blog to be depressive or sad... I just wanna express my thoughts or what I feel like. I don't like saying what I feel because it feels embarrassing knowing people online could see it but I feel like it's better to open up here. Moving forward, I just feel like I never belong irl !! Like with friends or stuff, you've probably seen me vent or rant about my friends several times in my blogs. They're just school friends but still, it feels like there's a gap between me and them? They're nice sometimes but.. that's it. I don't have that much similarities w them. And they just love comparing about grades even though they know they aimed higher than me. It just makes me annoyed. One time, we were resting outside of our classroom (i think its called a lounge at my school.) and there was no more seats so they told me to borrow from someone. The thing is, they forced me to and got mad (knowing i get really OVERWHELMEDD infront of ppl i don't know, and they were almost hinting that I was a coward. look i can talk to ppl but getting forced and them being mad is just not it) Besides that, my family too. I don't talk to them that much and I feel like i'm just invisible to them.. They only have high expectations when it comes to grades, of course. Anyway, what i mean to say is I just can't connect 2 people irl when it comes to making friends.. I try to but I just feel like i'm always out of place. Even with my friend out of school, she barely hangs out with me. Even if I'm busy with academics, I just feel lonely for some reason.., That's why i love talking to people onlinexD because atleast they'd understand you and sympathize with you unlike ppl i know irl that invalidate what I feel or don't take it seriously. Well that's about it, I know it's long but I just wanted to let it outxD also i didn't proofread this so idc abt the grammar