Recap of nothing and something

Day Recap:

Soo i been feeling bad, maybe i shouldn't have uhh posted my happiness cuz of karma so what if we vice versa it. Post my sadness to gain happiness, However i will share my happy moments cuz if 

I'm happy, let me share it, if I'm sad let me express it

So these past few days are hard, i feel a terrible leader to the same home-economics' project as this feeling drained me out and even worse we have ANOTHER PROJECT WITH THE SAME GROUP!! and another thing my printer really suckssss like lines in the writing and i have a printing business... Then worse of them i feel like I'm loosing spark in my irl friends like one makes me feel so scared of them like i fear they'll get angry at me if i do something wrong or say something stupid (cuz i am very ignorant so i tend to do stupid stuff) and i feel like i cant even talk to them, or another friend whom I'm very close too but nowadays sometimes they're annoying but i wish i didn't hold these feelings because i do wish to have friendship with them.  But in reality i do have friendship issues as i grew up very isolated with covid taking the years i should have use for socializing, being isolated because i couldn't speak the language (my fluent language is English rather than Tagalog) and i didn't even have online friends. I know they're great people but i wish i was great as them or even just fix myself. I have problems with myself especially mentally and i wish i didn't have it. i wish i was normal, i wish i wasn't a rude person, i wish i was great at people. i wish i wasn't so sensitive. i am a rude person, i can hurt people without knowing it hurts so i don't deserve my sensitivity. I deserve  to be hurt.  I am exactly like my father. 

That's enough venting (is that what is it called?) lets talk about the good parts of my day!! Soo i feel so much thigs off my chest with almost my group projects over!! li

ke this week may be the worse but its also finished 80% of it!! IDK butt I'm really good drawing Genshin characters based on their TCG card!! and I'm into drawing again which tip!! (IF you own acrylic markers and their nib isn't straight, dry or now brownish, pull the nib off and flip it and it'll fix your problem!!) And my bed is super super comfy that I'm so proud of it!! Another thing is that i got a good gel-pen from my Auntie so that's a win!! MY missing fan was also founded so Hazzuh!!!! and i began to write another section which you can see that paper listing of what if.. A parasitic worm or the cousin of the whipworm? entered your ear? 

 Life isn't perfect but who isn't?

Have a Great day people!!