recent grad getting my life together

ugghhhhhh 
i graduated this year and i told my dad once school starts for everybody else (aug 11) id lock in and start getting my permit and  then my drivers license. im an adult so i cant go take it online sadly :sob:  im just kinda spooked about it. i know its not that hard ive taken it before but i failed bc of test anxiety. im just kinda a pussy abt like. driving and stuff. im not like. scared abt getting a job tho. i like keeping busy and id work for free. although i enjoy money. idk im just scared id have to change my apperance. i obviously can't get rid of my tattoos but idk they might make me like. lose my dyed hair or take out my lip piercing. and i dojnt want that :( i might work at some silly low stakes job. then in like. spring i have to go to college which is fine. i enjoy learning.