Sad again

Monday, October 19

Hello! How's it going? ... I'm back here again because, well, my social battery is draining. Today a group chat where I felt really comfortable got deleted :( It hurt because I grew fond of many of them, but oh well, that's how things go. But besides that, I'm feeling pretty sad.

My dog got quite sick and I'm afraid that, well, you know, he might pass away. Honestly, I don't know, but somehow I can almost feel what he feels or his pain HAHA It sounds crazy, but the tension there's been in this house is pretty heavy... Somehow I feel like my dog is sad and it hurts me to see him like that.

He reached a point where he became a bit grumpy/bitter, I don't know if you get what I mean. It's kind of like when a person feels they can't receive love and turns mean, Haha sorry for that bad comparison, but I feel like he's like that. He became that way because he always felt like he couldn't receive love.

I'm afraid of losing him. Whatever he was like, he was always with me and my family, always being a protector despite being the way he is :(