Sad teen talking Shi booo

I mean, I'm still 17 right? Still a teen?? I want to think so 😭 

It's pretty common to feel like this at 17, I've always known that at some point I would feel like this but when this type of thoughts you've been aware of almost all your short life it hits you different ig

Since I was 11/12 I was Conscious of the "damn Idfk what to do with my life after University, fuck" type thoughts BUTTTT they are finally here and NOW it's where I'm really aware of what those thoughts mean:

How the hell I'm going to pay rent? I have to declare my assets annually, BUT HOW? How does the SAT (Mexican Tax Administration Service) works and why are they hounding me? Oh cool I have an ID now...I can't repeat my sign exactlly in 3 different documents, will I be arrested for this?

Haha yeah...those thoughts BUT IN THE OTHER PART WE HAVE THE REGRETS OF MY TEEN YEARS:

How to get a Teenage romance like in the movies at 17 if in January I'll be 18 search, I wish that friend group lasted more, In less than 4 months I'll be a legal adult yay...but Im still 13 watching the DSMP and roleplay series wdym I can vote now?

And now we get to the part where I talk about my last year being a teenager.

I won't have memories of this year and it's fucked.

I know this is also fault of social media, but people sold me the idea of 17 like it's the most important year until now and you have to enjoyyy ittt cz you have no responsibilityssss and and and it's funnnn and rainbows and sht BUT NOW I feel like I've wasted the most precious year of my life in what? Living it like other year? I realised that in August when my parents let me been more "independent"? I can go after school to the near mall there but it's senior year of high school and now i just started living my life like I was supposed to do from 15 - 18 and now, instead of enjoying these beautiful days, I'm sad because I know they won't last much cz life keeps going on with of without me. ANDD I won't be able to remember those moments cz I'm spending that days thinking "I'm so sad, they came so late wawawawawae" and I KNOW THAT ON THE FUTURE I'm going to regret thinking like this WHEN THOSE MOMENTS ARE STILL HAPPENING..

but I don't really know how to enjoy them now, after waiting for them so long, I feel like they are slipping away like sand through my fingers y realmente quiero que esos pensamientos se detengan mientras aún puedo disfrutar de mi último año siendo niña, a pesar de ser una niña de 12 años en el de una chica de 17

Todo se puso tan confuso para mí durante la pandemia, no siento que haya madurado correctamente y para mí es como ahogarse y seguir respirando. No vivo, tampoco sobrevivo, solo pasan los días y desperdicio esos días pensando de esta manera y me da mucha impotencia.

Anywaysss lol bye gays remember do not make war and make out with everyone instead