School :(

So basically my mom forces me to go to a private Christian school and a lot of people just say awful things abt me and I don't have any friends at school bc everyone there makes fun of my style and interests etc and now my ex is at my school (it was the last guy i dated before being lesbian) and he keeps making up TERRIBLE rumors about me (also a lot of h0mophonic stuff bc im lesbian) at the time we were dating HE WAS PAN and now im the terrible one bc im lesbian like I can control who im attracted to and I already go to therapy and take medications from my doctor to help but idk if its enough but its been really hard lately..Also freaking teachers say I shouldn't be on my phone during lunch even tho were allowed to and im just like yeah ok but like what the fuck else am I supposed to do also during lunch I literally just sit in the bathroom I don't eat anymore tho because the anxiety kinda makes it impossible for me to eat.