school update..

i was saying i was scared before but i have found my solution. 

solution includes going back to my school thats in the middle of nowhere back home with the highschool grad classes having the same kids since kindergarten.. 

i live in the city with my dad currently, yet ive always been super stubborn about not wanting to be here cause i was born and raised up north in this foresty area and i hate the city.

we're both trying to move back and a plan is in progress but with him, its not looking like ill make it back intime for school/

which is where split parents comes in clutch,

my mom lives up there, even if its not the exact neighbourhood i wanna be in, she could get me to that school everyday, but id have to hang out with friends for like 4 hours after school which may be super draining but she works late and lives too far by bus.

dont get me wrong, the second my dad can move back up north im going back with him, im just staying with my mom until then,

but she lives in a portable type home that all the stuff in my room would take up the whole house, in some places the house isnt even 15 feet wide.

so id have to only take my abundance of clothes, some pillows, my makeup and such, and somme other things, like the laptop im typing this on.

even if its not ideal to not be in the little neighbourhood where my heart resonates, i can atleast be in a familiar school with my friends!

and yes, i had this idea at 12pm while reminiscing living in said area where my heart truly resonates.

we'd see beautiful sunrises and sunsets every day and i miss that morning isolation on the bus by myself more than anything.

i miss the pure blue skies in the summer and the beautiful forest i was surrounded by.

and i was reminiscing this photo to be specific--