Second day of school!! 8/12/26

8:08

Since i saw so many cute scene chix at my school, i spent forever getting my hair JUUUUST right. Still kinda sucks tho. Stupid glasses get in the way… whatever. I'm gonna b l8 if i don't hurry, but i got a song stuck in my head and i GOTTTTA get it on my mp3 player. i gotta pirate like my life depends on it!!! But my fuckingh internet is…GRRAGh!! I give up. If it's stil stuck in my head ill just use my earbuds reeeealy discreetly- i'm scared of getting my phone taken away.

11:08

Oh gosh i'm so tired… and hungry. I didnt eat breakfast.  i slept through an entire presentation. Also turns out theres an ittly bittly chance my friend doesnt have the same lunch as me. I thought we for sure did, but now it's a ⅓ chance. Eh, at least we have one semester of health class together.

!!!!! my teacher just said “i'm trying my best to make this class as easy as possible” !!!! WOOOOOOOHOOO!!! I LOVE teachers who are coaches and only care about sports! HAH!! And she said something about don't draw if you havent done your work… my bestie is nose deep in his sketchbook rn LMAO we looked at each other like >> <<

Gosh i'm so fucking hungry. Whats for lunch?? OOh! Looking forward to lunch!!

11:38

My teacher looks like some sort of elf or orc perhaps. Looks like a blacksmith in a fantasy world. She also sounds like abby lee miller without the accent. She seems cool

12:38

O my gosh my math teacher seems so sweet!!! My class is so quiet and awkward, which i suppose is better than a rowdy class, but when i’m the most talkative, things are for sure too awkward. I suppose this is what happens when you move from ap to honors. Either everyone is dumb and loud, or dumb and quiet. And i say dumb not as in un-smart but as in not trying or caring at all. And thats dumb

This is so embarrassing i'm so so so excited for this class!!!

2:57

I made a new friend!! So at least i have two  one person that i have lunch with! i'm gonna ask my dad if i can buy her lunch every day until she can fully apply to free/reduced lunch. i dont want her to go hungry. even if my dad says no, ill just get a bunch more sides and half my lunch with her. And i walked into my 8th period (which i also share with my new friend) and another freind was there!! And a half-freind. I'm a bit cautious, for some reason he though I would be the one to say the n word around???  Hes whiter than i am TwT

Oh but i KNOW this class is gonna be fun, i actually have people to talk to!!

11:11

as soon as i got home i immediately fell asleep. i mean, just knocked out for 5 hours. 

i gotta stop wearing my converse, they hurt my legs. but i'm just to committed to the swag. 

i think i was a bit harsh on alex (the one that said the n word a lot last year) caus i was kinda making digs at em- but i was being wayyyy to honest in kinda jokey way. i think its cause theres a total hottie in that class, and i. theyre cringe. and im scared people will see me the same just cause im trans and autistic. and they do- but im not a weeb and i actually shower and i dont talk super loudly and freakily about my hyperfixations, (AND im not racist and i dont make nazi jokes or say the n world like alex does, but that goes without saying.) and im not,,, he's kinda one of those "uwu silly cars" hazbin hotel "scenecore" posers, if you know what im saying.  i shouldnt be a subtle asshat. i think people can change, and... i dont know, man. it wasnt cool of me to throw them under the bus instead of calling them out properly. i apologized to alex, but they were still upset i think. 

i kinda feel embarrassed about some of my friends in the same way i feel embarrassed to be seen with alex. I really gotta just be grateful that i have the friends i do, y'know, people that wont bully me. even if one of the reasons im bullied is because of the freinds i have.

im gonna try to go to bed again, but i have a headache