Serenity

Everything is actually... okay today. It feels weird. Like, for the first time in a long time, my brain isn't screaming and everything just feels normal. No big breakdowns, no fighting with people, just a quiet day where I don't feel like I'm drowning for once.

It's kind of scary though. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop or for something to happen that ruins it, because I'm so used to the bad days that the good ones feel like a trick. I'm just sitting here hoping it stays like this. I just want to wake up tomorrow and feel this same kind of calm again.

I dont want to jinx it or anything, but it's nice to just breathe without feeling like there's a weight on my chest. I'm just gonna try to enjoy the silence while it's actually peaceful for a change. <3