sickening gut feeling

There’s this strange, heavy sensation deep inside. It sneaks up unnoticed, but twists you up so intensely that it literally makes you sick to your stomach.

It's that exact feeling when a wave of longing hits for someone from the past for an ex and your throat tightens from phantom memories. You sit in silence listening to an evening playlist, trying to distract yourself or bury yourself in code but your gut feeling completely knocks the ground out from under your feet. The psychology of emotions is a cruel thing when memory starts playing games like this.

Today is just one of those days I feel this heaviness in my gut and am giving myself time to process it in the silence.