sigh junior year.

so I've recently started my junior year of high school and it has been fucking SHIT. Last year I had so much time to myself to do my own hobbies but now I am so pressured to just do hw every single day with NO breaks. I know I have to try really hard to give back to my parents but I just can't take it. Every failing grade I receive, I cry myself to sleep thinking I am a failure, which is the one thing I am afraid of in life. Last month was one of the most hardest months for me because of this, my moods probably didn't show it , but I was actually losing my shit. I am doing a bit better now so dw (probably because I got used to it and just accepted this my life until May and I lowkey just gotta push thru). I've been trying to get back into drawing daily, reading my sonic idw comics and sonadow fics hehe, and also romanticizing and listening to mcr everyday with my very dear friend in math class (you know who you are.....) and been planning to see mcr again with my other friend (YOU KNOW WHO YALL AREEE).I'm also working on getting an acoustic guitar to learn how to play and collect CDs so I can pick up a few new hobbies to distract myself but also to make myself a tad bit happier. Sorry for the really long rant I lowkey felt like Shakespeare for a sec :P