sleepy rant about obsessions

I am sooo sick of getting obsessed with any given media. I wish I could just be a casual enjoyer of everything I like because becoming obsessed leads me to the worst outcomes. I know it'll end eventually and I feel a sort of dread from the moment I realize that after getting a new obsession. Then there's wondering if something will replace it or if there'll just be an empty hole where my love for that thing once was, but neither are really good options. And then afterwards I become entirely disinterested with the same thing that was basically my sole happiness days or weeks prior, and I know I have to look like an indecisive damn crazy person to the people around me. Ugh.