small vent

My mother has recently passed away and people won't stop bothering me. The relatives that are staying with me did nothing but make me uncomfortable so far. Why don't you eat this? Why don't you eat that? Why are you like this? Why are you like that? SHUT UP OMG. LET ME BE. LET ME STAY IN MY ROOM. LET ME GRIEVE. LET ME DO WHAT I WANT. I CAN'T EVEN CRY IN PEACE. THE ONLY PEOPLE I FEEL COMFORTABLE STAYİNG CLOSE WİTH ARE MY MOTHER'S FRIENDS. I DON'T WANT TO STAY AND PRAY EVERYDAY WİTH THE WHOLE ASS SQUAD FOR HOURS. AND GET BACKHANDEDLY INSULTED FOR NOT STAYING BACK AND JOINING. I'M DONE. I really appreciated the whole cleaning they did with the house because the house was genuinely rotting away like I told you guys in my previous entries but they're pissing me off. I have my own taste bud and my family raised me differently than you guys (relatives). SO LEAVE ME THE HECK ALONE BRO. "Why don't you drink anything?" SO YOU COULD ASK. I DON'T APPRECIATE YOU FORCING ME TO DRINK AND EAT THINGS I DON'T LIKE. FUCK YOU BRO FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. PLEASE LEAVE US ALONE. LEAVE ME ALONE. THEY DON'T CLOSE MY DOOR WHEN LEAVİNG. LEAVE İT WİDE OPEN. PLUS LEAVE EVEEEERY DOOR WIDE OPEN WHEN AC IS OPEN. They also love coming to my room every 5 minutes for cold water. I'm about to kms I think.

Atleast it didn't happened on my birthday and just a week later. I think I feel peaceful knowing she was there to celebrate it with me. Even though I have complicated  feelings about her... I like to think she loved me.

I also called one of my mother's old best friends today, and she didn't even recognize me. I don't know how many esmas she knows in her life, but... I told her the news, and I could tell she was shaken up by it. I feel bad for not telling her sooner, but 4 days later. Told me she'll be visiting later asap.